sparky oh how I love you

I went today for my first check up for old sparky. I found out that I am pacing 75% of the time. That just seems crazy to me! No wonder I wasn't doing well before I got it. I do get a lot of people telling me that I look better and that you can tell I am feeling better. I am feeling a lot better and I am excited to continue feeling better. They put my rate up to 70 beats a minute so it will be working even harder. They decided to put it up higher to accomodate for some dizziness that occurs when my heart drops to fast before my pacemaker picks it up. I am so thankful that I have this little help....and I get to be this cool bionic woman :)
I am sitting here bored out of my mind, COLD, and lonely. I really wish my husband was home every night. It is so difficult to be without him some nights. He really hates work and I wish that he could find something he loves. I really just wish that we could settle into a life that brings us a lot of happiness and just a little stress relief. So much has happened to us the past few years and we need stability. I never saw myself where we are.....I thought we would be more settled but I know that will come within time and I think that maybe sparky is our good start. Lets just hope........